― Federico García Lorca
The keenest of you, dear readers, will know what that means regarding this writer. And, I will have to say sorry. I am sorry that the inferred weakness above is what's within me; however, I have this new-found, publicly admitted love affair with honesty.
To tackle this truth, I have made several intentional moves. I am not stupid. I am not blind. I am not in denial. But I am being silent about things that scream inside of me. Aside from this blog, I will not talk about this bullshit with anyone, any more. It's not worth anyone's time. If, on the other hand, you've chosen, of your own free-will, to read this blog, that's on you. You knew what kind of mess you might be stepping into! By the way, please, feel free to comment and share if not only for my amazingly genius use of the Oxford Comma. What was I saying?
Oh, yeah! I was talking about how I have decided to calculatingly overcome my ridiculous, rash, and thoughtless heart.
1. Move the fuck away from this God forsaken town!
Not only is rent more than twice that of Fargo (my new destination come hell or high water...more than likely, high water....thank you red river valley), but that never-ending, childish, hopeless wish of things being what they once were cannot exist so energetically when 5 hours away. And, thanks to the universe above, under, around, and in us....my family, and even friends from those times that make them lifelong, are there. God bless family and lifelong friends*.
2. That's it. I'm a one move kind of gal. :) Although, shutting the fuck up about it to people when in person has definitely helped, as well. Feel free, lovers and haters, to tell me to SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT IT if I EVER bring it up. It needs a rest for fuck's sake. I should make a #3. No more blogging about it. But, I'd lose all of my readers. They eat this heartache shit up!!!
Good night. And, you're welcome.
*To my most dear, true, and lifelong friends in this piece of shit town I'm leaving, you know I love you from the tips of my toes to the depths of my soul. But this blog isn't about you, you egotistical brats! Love you! Lol!
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